Before starting this blog, I always wonder what I’m going to write about! Then, out of the blue, a topic presents itself and writing the blog seems to help solidify the idea.
One of my PPNs is Liberty. What a great word. At first I though that, for me, it meant freedom….never to have to think about money ever again. So, when I have enough residual income, I have the freedom to travel when and where I like, shop where ever I like, freedom from the concerns of how I am going to pay bills and very importantly, freedom from having to subject myself to the slavery of a job. And freedom certainly is all those things for me, but yesterday, I realised that Liberty has another dimension to it that freedom doesn’t have.
Liberty is setting myself free from myself! Liberating myself from the old thoughts and habits that have been keeping me doing things for people out of guilt or misplaced sense of responsibility…even when those things are not in my best interests. I have been helping people and constantly threatening my own well being! What a goose!
Thank goodness we read the scrolls 3 times a day for 30 days….it takes me that long for the whole meaning to sink in! “I greet this day with love in my heart. And most of all, I love myself.” I haven’t been loving myself! I have been putting myself last (is that a woman/mother thing?) and left myself struggling financially and emotionally. I get it now! I don’t have to do that any more! I change my thinking! I am important! I am worthy of success! I love myself and want to look after myself to make sure no harm comes to me! Others just have to take responsibility for themselves as do I! I deserve to be loved for who I am and not what I can do for people! That is the most liberating thing that has ever happened to me….I love it! I give thanks for the MKMMA course and that I was fortunate enough to be granted a place on it. I am truly blessed!